We're down! I lost another pound, bring me to 252 and the grand total lost to 38 pounds lost!
I'm pretty excited. I really want to get below the 250 mark before I go to the doctor on the 24th. I think that's a completely reasonable goal. It's 2 and a half weeks away. I can do this, if I really buckle down and work at it.
I can't wait to get below the 250 mark. Being below the 250 mark seems to be another world to me right now. It's somewhere I want to be. It was my first goal - get below 250. Getting below 250 also means that I will have lost 40 pounds.
It almost makes me want to make plans to see my Dad's family. I don't think they ever thought I'd loose weight. I'd always be the fat one. Sure, I can be smarter, work harder and do better in life than there kids, but I'd still be the fat one. I can't wait. I think I'm going to weight a little longer - maybe until I'm down 50 pounds - to make plans with them. Does this make me a shallow person? I don't think so. It's one of those things - family issues. Either way, I can't wait to show myself off. Memorial day weekend wasn't that big of a deal, mainly because my family in Chicago haven't seen me in years anyway. It makes you feel good - seeing people who haven't seen you since before surgery. Because even when they don't say anything, and my Dad's family won't, you still feel wonderful. You know they know. Does that make sense?
Anyway. I should probably go get lunch. I only woke up an hour ago, so I guess I missed breakfast, but all the same.
UPDATE - So, maybe eating lunch wasn't such a good idea after all. The first few bites were followed by a very long, and very painful, trip to the bathroom so that I could see my lunch again. Lovely. I'm sticking to low-fat, frozen yogurt - the Ben&Jerry's Cherry Garcia variety. A half cup is 160 calories and 3.5 grams of fat. Anytime I try to eat something normal after an 'episode', it's uncomfortable, so I avoid solids for a couple of hours.
You're not shallow, you're just honest. And I honestly believe that most people in your situation would feel the exact same way (whether or not they admit it).
ReplyDeleteVindication is always good!
Lol. Agreed. It's weird. My mom always talks about how crazy weird my Dad's parents were about weight - constantly talking about who was eating what and how my Mom looked like she'd gained weight. Luckily, my Dad isn't like that, but his siblings, well. They're all just crazy - end of story.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you mean about your dad's family. I feel the same way about certain people as well. It's not shallow at all! It's more about not wanting to be judged unfavorably due to your weight.
ReplyDeleteYou are doing great! 250 will be here before you know it!
Catherine
At least I'm not alone. And it makes it harder, because for the most part, I don't genuinely like them and only associate with them because - well, I can't actually answer that one. I don't know why I do. My Dad doesn't even talk to them. But now I'm rambling.
ReplyDeleteAnd thanks!